Flashback

As i grew up i hated studies. Everything used to bounce off my head and specially mathematics, My brain would wander everywhere but never be in the classroom and thus making me repeat my boards or the final Year of the school.

Feeling ashamed, angry and demotivated at the same time, i enter my class where all my juniors look at me as if they had seen a creature from outer space. Luckily a vacant bench at the last corner of the ladies section of the classroom was shining like a box of treasure and so i used my shame and grabbed it. “Hello” someone uttered, as i turn around it was my bench-mate smiling and waving her tiny hands towards me. I replied back with the ugliest and most fake smile one can ever bring to his/her face. Surprisingly one hello turned into 30 hellos and 30 new friends who greeted me in a new way, made me feel comfortable and made sure i felt like an year younger on earth. It was a joyful and surprising event. My shyness, nervousness had disappeared in a snap. It was nothing like they show in the movies with  students making you feel like an animal in the zoo or the mean girls gang talking about your hair and make up, Nothing like that and then enter the dragon (the evil one) .” Oh monalisa, Welcome..and students if you dont study well you will also land up sitting with your juniors ” This was my teacher proving that not everything they show in the movies is fictional..dammit! Sarcasm served extremely hot. Nonetheless without giving a shit i moved on and today my best friends are the ones who i repeated my 10th standard with.

        Today i feel my life would have been a little less interesting if this event would not have occurred. Though i wont call it destined or written for i feel destiny is just a shortcut people use for their failures. But i guess i was fortunate that my subconscious mind made me accept the greeting and warmth my new friends gave me. It was my adaptation to the change, The discovery of joy in something i was nervous and fearful about. That first hello which was so random, so instant and so vibrant that it gave me no time to judge it. Judgement and assumption takes a large space in our heads which needs to be vacated for new and surprising things to happen even if it is hurtful they teach you a lesson for life and guess what?? You become wiser :).

After school ended the biggest confusion landed on my lap, Yes it was about higher studies. Life gets more interesting here.

to be contd..

 

This blog is about me, An Indian woman battling cancer and a split up simultaneously,  Along with the story i share how staying hopeful and strong has kept me alive and kicking till now. If you liked what you just read I would be glad if you leave a comment, Like it, reblog it or subscribe.

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